Wednesday, 30 July 2014

Sleepless Nights: When your mind is racing with thoughts

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There're those nights when your mind will refuse to shut up and all you would do is THINK. You would think about what happened the past hour, the past week, the past month or perhaps the past year. You would think about the good and the bad. You would think about what could have been, what should and why it didn't. You would keep replaying the moments like a stuck record tape until you're convinced that the universe is conspired against you and you just can't seem to have your own way.

You would toss and turn around in your bed unable to fall asleep. You would wonder why isn't life so perfect? Why isn't life similar to fairy tales in the books and the movies? Why couldn't you be flawless and perfect? Why is it when everything seems so easy and right, it ends?

"At any given point of time, our one foot is in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss."

It's at night when you seem to see your true desires.You would think of the failures and what would have people said, the successes and how it motivates you to strive for better from then, the messages that you never sent, the things you never meant. You reflect on the moments of unhappiness which gets momentarily blinded by the sun. 

Its when you become poets and philosophers.

Its that time of the night when your most tender, vulnerable side of you come into play in front of the non judgmental  eyes of the stars. At this current point of time you feel completely alone. At night when the world goes to sleep, you're left with your worries, fears and pains. The weight of all this might me unbearable. The feeling of chaos in your mind makes sleep almost impossible and all you really want is someone to hold you and say "You're not alone". 

Ah! These magical words would light up your spirits but well, there is no one around and instead you tell your mind to shut up and sleep so that you could wake up on time for the important meeting the next day. But your brain doesn't listen and you are left with your fears gripping you tight making you paralyzed. Your mind races and so does your heartbeat. It is truly said that "Negative thoughts creates room for more negativity to appear"

So, you start from one incident and jump on to the next related incident and the journey is endless and you're exhausted. You look at the clock and it says 3 am and finally your eyes weigh more than your thoughts and you drift off to sleep.

How do I know all this, you might ask. I have been in your shoes would be my reply.

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18 comments:

  1. Obviously anyone can relate!

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  2. It's a sign that we care...
    maybe if we didn't care so much we wouldn't think so much?

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  3. I used to be the girl that would put her head on the pillow and sleep the whole night rested... those were awesome days... I did have insomnia a day here and there but what you write about here happens to me regularly... just the other night I was up right until 3 and I had to be up at 5. Oh how I wish I could turn my thoughts off sometimes... it might make sleeping easier :)

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    1. I always thought that technology disrupts sleep. Now it seems they're a good distraction for your thoughts. Ah! confusion.

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  4. Yeah this happens often and your mind just refuses to shut down! Worse still is when you get some sleep and then you get some weird dreams that keep you somewhere in between being asleep and being awake! And yeah could relate to what you said!

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    1. Oh yes, I have experienced that as well. A good nice well rested sleep is a necessity in life.

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  5. Nice to see when thoughts related to me are expressed by someone else's ability to write well :)

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  6. "At any given point of time, our one foot is in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss."

    I guess this one was the most accurate point as per my view, I use to be lost in differentiation the world of reality and wishes of mine.

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  7. Very nicely shared. Totally agree with you, Sakshi :)

    Thanks for stopping by at my Blog :)

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  8. True that. I find it very difficult to sleep with so many things running on my mind. And that's when ideas come to me ;-)

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  9. So well written and so true! :)

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